Does your faith have secret walls? Hidden limitations you’ve built around your life? For years, I refused to go on a mission trip overseas. I reasoned that God could send someone else, and that it was best for my children if I didn’t go. To be honest, I wanted to go but I was trapped by my fears. My fears formed a fortified wall around my faith allowing me to go only so far with God. When I considered what was on the other side of the wall, I imagined horrible outcomes: Sickness, not being allowed back in country, orphaning my children, or not being with them if they needed me. The enemy had me right where he wanted me. Faithless. Ashamed. Controlled. Ineffective.
I imagine you have your own reasoning for your faith walls.
Maybe God has prompted you to witness to someone, but you felt inadequate, and decided to wait for another day.
Maybe God wants you to begin a new ministry, but you are insecure about your ability and decide to bury the dream.
Maybe someone you know suffers from a chronic illness, and because you haven’t seen improvement you doubt healing and your prayers have tapered off.
Maybe you have faith that God loves, forgives, or has plans for everyone else, but cannot believe those truths for yourself.
It is those feelings of inadequacy, insecurity, doubt, and a lack of self-worth that limit our faith.
God is not the creator of those limits. We are.
God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and love and discipline. (2 Timothy 1:7) However, we choose to thwart that power and discipline when we allow our flesh to override God’s desires for us. Our hope and belief can waver when things seem impossible. The enemy plants the lie and waters it with doubt: Will God really make good on His promises to me?
Consider the Hall of Faith in Hebrews 11. This is an historic account of real men and women who struggled with their faith, but chose to knock down their walls of inadequacy, insecurity, doubt, and fear. When they did, God showed up in huge ways and made good on His promises!
I remember the day God broke down the fortified wall that had kept me from traveling on mission. God was prompting my heart to travel to South Asia with my husband, leaving my boys behind. As I was praying and asking God to help me take this step of faith, He simply stilled me with His love and spoke into my soul:
Jodi, you will never receive the abundance of life I have designed specifically for you if you continue to live in fear. I have plans to use you for My Kingdom. You may have given birth to your children but I created them and I love them more than you could ever dream! You can trust Me with them. Do you trust Me? Yes Lord, I trust You! I trust You for what I cannot see on the other side of my wall.
I went and I was effective! I was no longer faithless or controlled by the enemy’s lies. But, I must be honest and tell you I prayed A LOT. However, the more I prayed, the more He strengthened my faith in His faithfulness. Peace ruled instead of fear. There was freedom on the other side of my faith wall. The enemy no longer had me where he wanted me. Instead, God had me right where He wanted me – trusting in Him.
Do you fear what’s on the other side of your wall? You don’t have to! There’s really nothing to fear when you trust God for the outcome. He will cause all things to work together for good if we let Him.
Secret walls limit our faith. Ask God to help you push down your wall so your faith can be without borders. It’s the life you were purposed to live … LIVE IT!
Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. Hebrews 11:1
Excellent thoughts! The fear of what is on the other side of the wall. I accept your truth today and celebrate the freedom of living without fear. God help me that each day that truth will be renewed.
Thanks Joy! There is such freedom in living without fear. 🙂
Thanks so much for your thoughts on fear and for sharing your struggles, victory, encouragement. For me what’s on the other side of the wall is moving back to America after most of my adult life abroad. Isn’t that funny? My familiar is your scary and vice versa! 🙂
How interesting that your other side of the wall is moving back to America. Thank you for stopping by and sharing Betsy.